That's right, we chose them for a reason only we can see.
I chose you for many things others can't see, for many things loveable, for many things simple, for many things heartfelt, for many things only I feel, for many things I feel for, for many things I hurt for.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I stand true to it, and I cross my fingers and heart, what doesn't kill us, will make us stronger too.
It's still a 24/7 passion.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Saturday, September 01, 2007
"A rubber band once stretched, will never regain its original proportions. Likewise for one's mind."
There are some things that can't be stretched. You can try. Just be prepared for the snap.
I often find myself telling others to be strong, that things will always find a way to work themselves right. That's what I constantly remind myself too. Even if they don't turn out right, I'll make sure it does, to the best of my abilities. Every single time I tell someone to be strong, I have to tell myself to be four times stronger. Only then, I can safely remind them to be strong, cos I can be sure that I am able to be there to catch anything that falls.
My memory is failing me, honestly. It's getting harder and harder for me to remember things. Not the short term memory loss like, after a while I'll recall it kind of memory failure. Instead, horrifyingly, it's like someone just went on a cleaning frenzy in my head. I can't focus, I can't get out of bed, I can't think right. But it's fine. I make do.
I try my best to start my day and everyone else's day around me positively. Brushing away any negative comments that come my way. It gets harder at times, especially when you're trying so hard to crawl out from under that insane amount of reports you have to send all over the world.
A lesson I learnt, or rather, something that I already know and I'm trying to drill into the thick skull of mine, is to never ever let my guard down.
I cannot ever catch myself thinking..."How nice, everything's all fine and dandy. Everyone around me is safe and happy." The next thing I know, something will, definitely, fall out of place and I cannot let that happen, especially to people I love.
Too many things have happened over the week to prove this point. I'm determined not to reach the point of being complacent and satisfied when everything goes on well.
I am my worst critic, I'm sorry.
Right now, I don't need anything else except 48 hours in a day. Or just let me fall.
There are some things that can't be stretched. You can try. Just be prepared for the snap.
I often find myself telling others to be strong, that things will always find a way to work themselves right. That's what I constantly remind myself too. Even if they don't turn out right, I'll make sure it does, to the best of my abilities. Every single time I tell someone to be strong, I have to tell myself to be four times stronger. Only then, I can safely remind them to be strong, cos I can be sure that I am able to be there to catch anything that falls.
My memory is failing me, honestly. It's getting harder and harder for me to remember things. Not the short term memory loss like, after a while I'll recall it kind of memory failure. Instead, horrifyingly, it's like someone just went on a cleaning frenzy in my head. I can't focus, I can't get out of bed, I can't think right. But it's fine. I make do.
I try my best to start my day and everyone else's day around me positively. Brushing away any negative comments that come my way. It gets harder at times, especially when you're trying so hard to crawl out from under that insane amount of reports you have to send all over the world.
A lesson I learnt, or rather, something that I already know and I'm trying to drill into the thick skull of mine, is to never ever let my guard down.
I cannot ever catch myself thinking..."How nice, everything's all fine and dandy. Everyone around me is safe and happy." The next thing I know, something will, definitely, fall out of place and I cannot let that happen, especially to people I love.
Too many things have happened over the week to prove this point. I'm determined not to reach the point of being complacent and satisfied when everything goes on well.
I am my worst critic, I'm sorry.
Right now, I don't need anything else except 48 hours in a day. Or just let me fall.
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