The year in review

Well, it's the time of the year again, when resolutions are set, when we all look back and sigh in happiness, or regrets, yadah yadah yadah...

Looking back, while cringing with the cliche-ness of it all, it's been a rather eventful year, or did I say the same thing last year? Oh wells.

I job-hopped, I went in and out of relationship and into another, I spent a good 6 months totally devoted to myself, and now, I'm stepping into the new year entirely unexpectedly.....jobless but happy, worried and in debt. Yes, I haven't paid my school fees.

First things first, I am happy, happy as a la la la lark. I have the sucky times too, but I'm still happy. Contradicting as it seems, its a kind of feeling that makes me feel all fuzzy and soft on the inside. I know I'm happy cos I can throw my head back and laugh loudly, without having to catch myself in time to worry about how stupid I look, my nails aren't nicely manicured, my hair isn't perfect, I still look horrible in pictures, I'm not thin enough, my eyes aren't big enough, my teeth aren't straight, bottomline is, I am contented, except for the jobless part.

I think I'm losing my point here.

We all have different expectations of ourselves, our lives, our friends, every single person around us. How we should behave, how they should behave, how we should be treated, how they should be treated. How things are going in my life may not be accepted by anyone else, but to reassure all, I am happy and I'm happier when I see everyone else being happy.

We all need happy fins, or tons of chocolate for that matter.

I love my man. I love my friends. It's amazing how my friends and his friends can all go out together, something I never dared to imagine happening. But it is so, right in front of my very eyes. I see everyone laughing together, spending X'mas together, and I just want to sigh and be embraced by all the love in the air.

If you're happy and you know it, you clap your hands. It's a simple kind of happiness and contentment. Simple and nice. I crave for simplicity and embrace simple satisfaction. I wish all joy and happiness, peace and love in the new year ahead.

What's yours will be yours, things happen for a reason, you may not see it this year, but you will in due course.

I love all of you my lovelies, and not forgetting, I love you precious, thanks for everything and everything.

Cheers to a spankin' good 2008!