In this world i call my own,contentment, self-belief, i make my thoughts known.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

i hate it when things are not within my control. or things go out of hand and dont go according to my plan. many times, i cant plan. i just have to go with the flow and make things work out. i hate his job. i cant complain. but i want him to stay on.

its this grey area that cant be touched upon cos he hates the consequences his job brings but doesnt want to leave. i think its killing both of us. i'm practically working part time in his company cos i help him with his work. i pick up after him the pieces he misses out and tie up the ends he leaves behind cos he only has enough time in a day to go thru the big chunks.

most of the times i have to fit my schedule into his just so he can get his work done in time cos to him a day's work has to be completed in the same day. time just dont stop for anyone. we're practically making merry in a pile of crap. its not much but its significant.

i miss the old times. but i prefer the now. get what i mean? i dont.

can things get any worse? i'll just grit through it.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

simple and nice.

i miss the times....

the simplicity of things
the hope the anticipation we had for the future
the plans
the dreams

the things that used to be simple arent simple anymore. the hopes we had all dashed. the plans? long gone with the wind. the dreams, remain solely as dreams. i see the photos and it pricks. things happen for a reason.