i hate it when things are not within my control. or things go out of hand and dont go according to my plan. many times, i cant plan. i just have to go with the flow and make things work out. i hate his job. i cant complain. but i want him to stay on.

its this grey area that cant be touched upon cos he hates the consequences his job brings but doesnt want to leave. i think its killing both of us. i'm practically working part time in his company cos i help him with his work. i pick up after him the pieces he misses out and tie up the ends he leaves behind cos he only has enough time in a day to go thru the big chunks.

most of the times i have to fit my schedule into his just so he can get his work done in time cos to him a day's work has to be completed in the same day. time just dont stop for anyone. we're practically making merry in a pile of crap. its not much but its significant.

i miss the old times. but i prefer the now. get what i mean? i dont.

can things get any worse? i'll just grit through it.