Guilty as charged.

At times, I do wonder if words being said or actions being done can be a true reflection of what he/she is thinking or feeling. Could it be, many a time, we're consciously or subconsciously masking some emotions within us, trying to show only the side we want the outside world or intended party to see? Do we know what we're doing? What is exactly on our minds when we go through this decision process?

I'm dumbfounded.

Definitely guilty as charged.

How can we demand another a true showcase of his/ her emotions and thoughts when we ourselves fail to deliver as such? Can we really do unto others how we would like to be treated?

No, we can't.

I don't deny there are times, times when we only realise what we're doing only after doing so. Hence, it's pretty much obvious that it's redundant to feel remorseful or repentant. Sorry is just a word by itself. It means nothing without the emotional tags that bind tightly to it if one truly means that apology.

It's tiring to guess. Exhausting in fact.

The constant reminders to ourselves to be truthful to ourselves are just literally sticking post-it notes all over the place without paying attention to it. What's the point?

The moral of the story is, it's your choice.

Regardless the situation, it's still your choice.

"I didn't have a choice!"

That is an excuse. A cover up for what you fail to admit.

Well, talk is cheap. We can say whatever we want and we won't get caught.

I do feel. I do see. I do listen. I do reminise.

But at the same time, the deafening truth prevails.

I have to turn the other way. I have to twist my words. I have to hear but not listen. I have to reminise without emotions.

As of now, the smile is the reward I give to myself.

The laughter an assurance.

The joy, a comfort.