There are some things said that can never be unsaid, whether you mean it a not, whether intentionally or unintentionally, it just doesn't work that way.

Like the time...

She said I stole $5 from her.

She said I was going out to seduce men.

She said I was out gallivanting.

He said he agreed with me and that I was right, but I've to listen to her solely cos she's who she is.

Or the many times she implied I depended on men for money.

She said I was dumb.

She said she doesn't trust me.

Albeit history, these words flash past my eyes every single time I see her. The countless times that she said she don't mean it the way she said doesn't make a least bit difference. What's said cannot be unsaid.

New phrases of such can be said, they no longer hurt as much. When put together, the words actually have a numbing effect. It doesn't change things, it just makes me immune and oblivious to the harsh, insulting attacks.

It's like, how I accidentally lunged my thumb into a pot of hot boiling oil while cooking some years back. Possibly more than a decade ago. It doesn't put me off cooking, but it hurt so bad, I'll never forget. It did take a quite some time for me to start using that pot again.

I don't forget. I simply get over the hurting.