I am happy she's happy.
I am happy they're happy. I really am.

I think I'm 30 trapped in a 20 year old body. I have forgotten how to have fun. I have forgotten what is pocket money. I have forgotten what it feels like to not have bills to pay for. I have forgotten what its like not to have financial burdens. I have forgotten what its like to have all day to chill.

But, I have not forgotten what its like to...

Share a glass of ice water among 4 people.

Sit by the steps for tidbits.

Sit in the library for hours.

Eat pai gu mian.

Laugh till I cry.

Cook pasta and instant noodles for 8 people together with 7 people.

Drink bubble tea.

That was 4 years ago. Feels like 10. I feel deprived of youth. Maybe I really am.

Work was never a necessity.
Neither was the need for practicality.