My runway, my guiding lights.

Friends to me, have been brought up to a whole new level after the termination of my past 2, or 3 relationships. They've meant the world to me, they still do, no doubt, and I've always tried my best to be there for every single one of them, in any way I could.

I'm talking about people who stood by me, stood by each other for so many years, we've seen each other go through the ups, the downs, the exhilarations, the agonizing, the anxieties, the worries, the uncertainties, the bliss, the list goes on and adds on every day.

We've stepped into different phases of life together, with more to come, every single one of us has changed in more ways than one. I'm so proud to call these girls, mine. Proud of the ladies we've all become, proud of the people we aspire to be, proud of what we've done to get us to what we are at this very moment.

A long and winding road still lies ahead, one that hopefully, we will walk down together. Witnessing the additions, we've lost a few, gained a few, when my girls are happy, I'm happy, and my mind can rest.

Events of late have left me in a state of imcomprehension. When friendship is put to test, does friendship or strictly speaking, the quest of one's love reign?

I shan't go into the topic of the quest of one's love, there's too much to cover, with no absolutes, just hypothetical questions and assumed scenarios. It encases too many boundaries, beliefs, principles and after all, it is still a very subjective mindset of every individual.

Opinions and advices of friends have always been of utmost appreciation to me, whether positive or negative. These are words of gold that only true friends will deliver, simply because they care. If they don't, why would they even be bothered with you?

This unmistakable act of concern however, is often misinterpreted and either fall on deaf ears, or brushed off. Having been on both sides of the fences of receiving and dishing out opinions and advices, this is one gesture of friendship that means loads to me.

Being on the giving end, I would want the very best for you as my friend, that's why I'd be telling or reminding you something I want you to know. I don't need that gesture to be reciprocated, good if it was appreciated, I'd just like for you to roll that idea in your head and judge for yourself what's applicable and what's good for you. It's ultimately your call, your road to take, you walk your own talk. Not me.

If it's of a certain significance, I may mention it more than once, and if I see that you don't find it an issue, I'll shut up. That's all to it.

On the other side of the fence, many a times, I don't see what others may see, I may be too involved in the minute details that I may overlook the whole picture and misjudge the whole situation. At such times, I need and appreciate if my friends point that out to me, or simply a word of mention to bring me back to the right path magnifies how much my friends care, and that I am still in their line of vision.

Close friends would know I appreciate and dig out their opinions and views very often on many different areas. I need my friends to keep me on the right track and likewise, I want to do the very same for them.

Undeniably, my words have been snubbed out, at times aplenty. There's only so much a friend can do, there's only so much I can do for my friends, there's only so much they can do for me. When it all comes down to it, I want each and every single one of them to be happy, in all aspects possible.

To a certain extent, I do feel partly responsible for what happened, things may be fine if I had just stepped out. Contradictory, I don't have any regrets of the actions as a whole, only the constant mental debate on whether the right moves were made, whether I could have handled the closure better.

Well, events have been more or less put into place, the pieces of the puzzle slowly fit in, as the bigger picture starts to show. When one person sees that you have a problem, it may be an indivdual biased opinion, when two or three, or more people identifies the same problem, please, wake up your ideas and do something about it. If you don't, stop blaming the whole world for it, except yourself.

You are responsible for yourself at this juncture, not your family, nor your friends. They are merely guiding lights on the runway, at the end of it, whether you take off, or crash nose first, it is you, and how much you are willing to do and clear headed to do, to ensure that final glory.