its hurts baby. you dont know that but it really hurts. i keep telling myself to listen to them. the voices around me. that i shouldnt keep giving in to you. i should just let you be that kind of thing. but i'm missing out on alot this way. alot alot alot. it sucks. the feeling is the dumps. and i know no one can feel it the way i do. it seems that i'm part of your life, yet i'm not. probably more not than yes. of cos i want it to be the way it used to be. but it seems that things are different. i'm not as happy as i was. not all the time at least. i'm contented with my life but i'm not contented with what my life can be.
i shouldnt ask for so much you know. i know what she says is true. what goes round will come back to you eventually. my own kids will do the same thing back to me. but i really cant help it but dread to come home. it gets on my nerves too easily and its depressing to be in this place. cant wait to get out. i want my own space. i want to breathe. i want to laugh heartily from the bottom of my heart. to really laugh.
i'm really tired. physically and mentally. i need a break. just leave me alone people. i need to find myself back. i need to do something for myself. i need to figure things out and plan what i want to do with my life. i'm aimless leading a life so meaningless. i dont know the next step. i dont know when.
she's leaving.
i'm still here.
drifting apart
further and further away
my heart falls a thousand floors
inside my cell i seek comfort
to mend my soul
to find my path
no one's helping
unlike you
i need someone to be there
someone to understand too
the person isnt you
i'm sorry my dear
seeking advice from people unknown
thats all i have to do
its better this way
for you and for me
though it hurts too much
i just have to bear
maybe you'll see it my way
one fine day
thats what i pray
from this moment on
meaning more than anything else
you in my life
let me have my way
just this once i plead
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