love him. hate him.

i'm kind of enjoying the school-less days now. though i know i should get my ass off the chair and go get a job. i need the money. pay off my driving lessons and start saving up money. isnt easy to not be able to spend and shop and having to watch how much i spend, but i have to i guess. its getting harder and harder.

guess ah jie's right. both of us have finally gotten our priorities right. or rather me. i think by not putting so much focus on where our relationship is heading makes it simpler and less pressurising on the both of us. we're having a whole lot more fun and we can talk about alot more stuff now. knowing that we support each other in whatever decision both of us make, and knowing that he's there to guide me along. its nice. the main focus in his life now is to get his career back into shape in order to think bout other things. whereas for me, i want to get my next step right and start off on the right foot. i love spending time with him now, even if i have to spend time watching tv alone at his place. cos somehow, he's making it a point to talk to me and get me involved in whatever he's doing ever since i told him how i felt.

i look at him now in a different light now that i've straighten things with myself, and i love him a whole new level up. the tingles are starting to come back and i'm happy to know that he's trying very hard to make sure everything goes well. basically i think i just drive him mad cos i'm constantly making him do silly stuff. do not ask me what. but they're real dumb. trust me.

times like i would purposelly call when i know he's watching tv just to irritate him, times when i bombard him with messages that he do not understand, times that he's forever stealing my munchies, times that he would purposelly make me do stuff so that he can laugh at me, times that he talk in his sleep asking me to call his platoon sergeant. and not forgetting the 67 missed calls and the many times he locks his keys in his room and get stuck in the living room waiting for help to come.

i shall end this night with a smile on my face.