great day. been called a betrayer by 2 of my closest friends and scheming by my mother. rounded up with my boyfriend screaming into the phone at me. not mentioning the physical hurt. great.
to juan and eve:
this thing has been going on for so long and guess we better talk about it once and for all. first of all, you said you dont see me trying hard enough. what is enough? if you say to be tolerant and patient, have you done so with me? do you know what i'm going through for the past year? things have changed yes. i do not deny that. doesnt mean i have other friends means i forgo our friendship. to me, it is not the number of the times we meet up, its knowing that i will be there whenever you need me. how much do you know about whats happening now? ever tried harder to see things from my point of view? i work hard to prove my mother wrong. i work hard to prove people who think i cannot make it wrong. do you understand?
its not a matter whether how many times i ask you out or its everytime that you ask me out? isnt the outing the most important thing? if i dont message you, does it mean i forget about you? if thats the way it is with you, i dont know what to say. i can never out talk both of you. you count the times i dont call you, i dont go out, you think the reasons i give are excuses. have you counted the times i've asked you out, counted the times i tried so hard to organise birthdays, counted the times i've been there, counted the times i've been accused of betrayal?
talking about betrayal. you say i betray the friendship by telling farena about what we discussed. then telling yk about it isnt betrayal? i'm not putting the blame on you. but please, just for once, listen to what i have to say. it hasnt been easy trying to convince the both of you that i'm still a friend and that i'm always here. times like yesterday, i didnt know a single shit about both of you going out. how was i supposed to make it a point to go out with you? maybe i HAVE to call you out. i DO talk to you in msn dont i? i DO msg you from time to time right? can you say an absolute NO?
so after all these, its just a "she deserves to cry". thats all i mean to u.
maybe the schedule thing was just a platform for you to get into this topic. but, whatever it is, accusing me of betrayal is something that i need to clarify. have you told others about it? if yes, is that called betrayal. you say i dont get it. do both of you get it? i'm not trying to defend myself. i'm trying to get you guys to see the way i see things.
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dear remember when i went MIA bcuz of this just 2 mths back and i mentioned abt holding hands? keep that in mind. i dun want u to go thru all this again. maybe they're right abt you being busy most of the time. but if they cant accept that, satisfy them.just stop them from wounding you like this. i'll heed my guy's advice tho.
ok so wtf DID i tell yk huh? your personal life with alan? tell me..i REALLY need to be enlightened. and don't bother outtalking us. someone does that for you already. so go on, do what she wants you to do and think what she wants you to think. i'm wondering why do we even quarrel directly to you in the first place.
dear juan, if you're talking abt me, just say. too scared? hmmm...suddenly thot abt da last incident when i was pissed with u, u told nic...crying. sigh. u wanna quarrel with me? bring it on. u think i tell sheen wad to do and wad not? well, i din stop her from spending time with alan. who wouldnt want to be with their guy? (o...you. yea, turned bryant down and went supper instead)i din count the number of times she din go out with me or cancelled plans at the very last min. and even so, i din give her a black face like you ALWAYS do. WTF you told yk? hmmm...
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