the special place in my heart

read xue er's blog. after so long, somehow or other i managed to come across it.

she had a story about the jing jang gang. our jing jang gang. it brought back so many memories to me.

brought together by fate. all because of our seating arrangement. we were a noisy bunch of friends. most of the time screaming and squealing in laughter. especially during maths lessons. we used to stand up together cos we didnt do our homework. we used to piss the hell out of Mrs Yap our physics teacher and Mrs Mano, our beloved Maths teacher who taught us a whole lot of stuffs.

memories of the jing jang gang are of chicken mee with lots of chilli, pai gu mian, custard chicken, bubble tea at west mall, spicy chicken, takopachi, maggie mee, cup noodles, ice cream, spaghetti and a whole lot more. we used to chill, relax, talk, dream, gossip, bitch, study together at all possible places. library, west mall, juan's house. we even skipped school to study! how ironic. but thats us.

all of us in the jing jang gang are so different in personalities. all so different yet we somehow fitted together. we were so crazy. man! i miss those days. we had talks about getting good results together, opening a cafe together, renting a place and moving out together, getting married and get all the rest as bridesmaids etc etc. however, what we didnt realise is that the poor last girl to get married wouldnt have a bridesmaid at all! silly us.

this simple and carefree life didnt seem to last. we got into poly, we spread further though still connected by that thin line of fate. all of us blossomed. now young, fine ladies blooming into the beautiful flowers we all are.

yet, the meetups are getting more and more patronising. knowing we all go to each gathering with hopes that it'll be how it used to be, filled with wholesome laughter and sincere concerns, but we all know deep inside, things arent the same any more.

we managed to succeed in one thing. we told each other that our group is going to expand. we're going to bring boyfriends and girlfriends along on gatherings. ultimately, we'll meet up over tea with husbands and wives and children in tow. we're on our way there. we're too big a group now to find a decent eating place but we make do.

it touched me so much to read what xue er wrote. we watched each other grow up. and we're still together as a group. no one can change that. it's all up to us. i still look forward to each gathering knowing we'll have fun, but we all have our own paths. with this in mind, we'll support and lend that listening ear and shoulder or tears of joy or sorrow whenever needed.

regardless how far we drift or how much we change, the jing jang gang will always have that special place in my heart. i still love you guys. but boy....we're getting old. its been 4 years since we graduated!