the cure

you know what? i finally found the cure, at least a temporary one. no expectations and i'll have no disappointment. like eve, all i can do is take each day as it comes. i'm left without a choice.

have you realised, i stopped messaging you for no reason. i only reply your messages instead of initiating messages if i can. i stopped asking you out. i stopped asking you whether i'm meeting you each day. i dont loiter around your house anymore. i dont tell you about what happens at work, or rather, grumble. i dont expect anything from you. anymore.

this is the only way i can protect myself from heartache and heartbreak. i cannot allow myself to expect something from you. even the littlest things. cos i know for sure, the moment i allow this to happen, my day will be ruined.

you say you dont want to hurt me. but i'm sorry to inform you my dear, you did, not only once. you dont have to do something big to hurt me. making me fall in love with you and treating me like this is hurting me. dont say anything you dont mean, and make sure you mean what you say. what goes around DOES come around.

where's the you i fell in love with? the one i'm still in love with?