thou shall learn

apparently my indecisiveness can kill someone...

he was so pissed at me cos i couldnt decide what to eat and where to go that he refused to talk to me and went to sleep for 2 hours, leaving me doing absolutely nothing constructive. we went for dinner at 8 45pm and he refused to hold my hand and crossed the stupid road without me. we didnt talk throughout dinner cos i refused to talk to him and was pissed at the fact that he was pissed at me and i had absolutely no idea what he was so pissed off about.

finally he gave in to me even though he was still pissed. BUT, i still had no idea what he was pissed about.

it didnt make any sense to me cos he was pissed at me and refused to talk to me. then he talked to me as though nothing happened. then he kissed me. then helloooo, whats going on here?!

to my dearest:

i'm sorry.

i know my indecisiveness has been hell for you. i know you want me to learn to make decisions and be more assertive and it gets you mad that i'm not learning. i'm trying. actually yesterday i was looking more for suggestions than a decision from you. i dont want to tell you, "hey lets go somewhere" then you'll be obligated to go with me but actually all you want to do is get some rest and do your stuff.

i'll learn.