UPS & downs

1 year.

not very long.

lots of things happened.

i'd say it was eventful.

ups and downs. understatement.

overall i was happy. actually i feel it. i feel loved. but still i need reassurance at times. at the very least he remembered.

my grandma's in hospital. somehow i wished i learnt how to speak teochew. so at least i can communicate with her, even if it was only during new year. i felt bad when she said out of so many grandchildren she has, she has never looked after any of us. cos she's almost deaf. she cant hear us properly. now she's 100% deaf in one ear and 90% deaf in the other. she had a mild heart attack and a mild stroke. she's been admitted for close to a week and things aren't looking too good. yesterday, she couldnt speak and couldnt sit up. they moved her up a level cos her situation's getting worse.

frankly i'm scared. and worried. though i havent been close to her, she's still my grandma and i dont want anything to happen to her. though she's 86. i havent had someone really close gotten so sick before after my grandfather.

it aint a good year.