Can't you just get out of my mind?
Stop driving me insane. Stop haunting me. Stop occupying my thoughts.
Its killing me...

Please...just go away. Like far far away. Don't even exist anymore if you're not planning to come back. Everything that happened in the last 2 years seems to run past my mind non-stop. Like some player with a spoilt stop button. It doesn't mean a thing to you, so why should I care?

Can't you just have mercy on me? I hate to wake up and I hate to fall asleep. Waking up would mean a rude shock of reality, falling asleep would mean I'm living in my own fantasy world where everything is all right. You're not helping.

It's so hard to pretend its okay. I'm totally not okay. I'm not recovering. I still want you back. But I can't and you won't. I have to accept it but I can't. I'm just forcing myself. I'm pushing myself to my limits, pushing myself over my limits, pushing myself to do what I can't, pushing myself to hate you, pushing myself to get over.

All I want to do is break down and cry and beg you to come back.